I missed you before you told me you were leaving
You’re so far away and I can almost feel you berating
The things you said are stuck in my head
Lets go back to before you left
your hand on my heart
my body in your arms
the promise you made
All the little things you say
The look in your eye when you smiled and said goodbye
All of these things I can’t let go of tonight
Running around after these feelings
Look me in the eye and tell me their meaning
Racking my brains for something to say
Come back home and let’s start this again
Until you return
Ill let these feelings burn
And although we don’t know
This time lest take it slow
You said that I’m what you need
And I don’t know if you’re right for me
But that’s what makes this fun
That what gives us our run
Your face seems to be always on my mind
You’re the only train of thought I’m able to find
I really don’t know if this means anything at all
But I know it’s not enough for a crash landing fall
So if it’s not meant to last
We’ll smile and have a laugh
When our fingers weave together and were walking side by side
We’ll smile at each other and say we're glad we tried

so many times I’ve walked down this line
time after time lie after lie
in so many ways I’m counting down the days
and i cant help but feel its all so lame
take it all with a pinch of salt
my heart will break before it malts
tease my mind and help me to forget
just promise my heart you wont neglect
let the wind take you far as we sit in our world
for just one more moment watch the sun whirl
my shield remains so high despite how much i try
when it feels dark your my instant source of light
hold me close as we walk in the heat
use each other for warmth when we're hit by the breeze
slow down it let it go, just let the moment flow
speed up don’t lose track take another look back

Searching his every move and analyse every touch
Read into every word finding the smallest thing to clutch
Sifting through the emotions and wading through tears
Avoiding the clashing commotion of contradicting fears
Blinded by the obvious but finding clarity in his eyes
The feeling of confusion is the situations disguise
Moving through the particles which create his airy presence
Like a knight in dirty armour like the rich one and the peasant
Tell me not to cry because you’ll be walking by my side
Tell me not to run because if it rains you’ll be my sun
Tell me it’s ok to fall because you’ll be waiting for my call
Tell me it’s ok to scream because you’ll be there with me
I catch your eye and every time
I feel myself melt some more inside
But I know that we could just never be
It’s been far too long and it’s not right for me
My mind is blank and pebbles line my road
Take it how you want it cause I don’t want your load
Its nothing personal I’m just tired from this game
Your actions are sharp and my words just the same
Let’s just agree that it won’t work and agree that it’s not right
Because I’m tired of your illusion and you’re fleeting will to fight
Let’s shake on the agreement that our friendship won’t be removed
Let’s move on from this stage of feeling broken and confused

You’re the truth in my lie
The backbone of my tale
The punctuation in my feelings
You’re the fresh when all is stale
Don’t you see what I'm trying to say?
I think this time I want you to stay
Forget it, I lost it
There’s no use chasing it
Forget me, regret me
Wonder why you wanted me
Hold me, let go of me
We don’t know what we want
Take me, release me
Turn away and move on
The style of your words create the fashion of my sentence
The way you start to hurt proves this isn’t worth the mention
But every time that I begin to try
I fall a little more not losing contact with your eye
I don’t need you to want me but I need you to hold me
I don’t want you to need me I need you to want me
I don’t live in that circle and on their path I don’t walk
I live in the shadows of the words I never talk
Day by day I try and swallow my pride
Time after time I hold my head up high
Every time is different but in hindsight it’s all the same
They will never understand because they will never feel the same

go to her door and shout this through
that I said her friendship is beneath my shoe
like an annoying stone caught in the groove
her happiness is stuck and wont shine through
shake her hand from me and give her these words
that nothing she now says can make me hurt
the wounds she created can bleed no more
I could care less but this situations a bore
I tried over and over to make you see
but I tried and I failed is what it seems
breaking away left the anger behind
but the bitter hurt remained inside
what can you do when you’re helping hand is refused
on the grounds of attention it seems we've been used
give him this letter which tells him straight
that I wont be listening to a word he says
yet another lie will roll of his lips
as he ignores his friends to give his girl a kiss
send him my regards which come from the heart
and tell him he cant win by claiming he's smart
ill stand here and laugh as they play their game
as they claim their love which seems nothing but lame
give them their words while i prepare my speech
I’m sure they want some advice from a single unattached cheek
tell them I’m trying a new approach
by not talking to their faces I’m exploring their low
their words aren’t bitter or twisted in shame
they are simply proof to all that i claim
this being that I know exactly what i mean
when i say I’m better off just being me
I don’t need to change
because I disapprove of your ways
I look down on shallow minds because it's all that I'm not
you hang off each other in compensation for what you haven't got

the grips are in motion as i turn another corner
no hand to hold in mine and no arm to pull me closer
the wheel is turning again for the hundredth time
i know they don't feel the same emotions as mine
my smile is fixed in the same place as before
my laugh is decieving as i slump into a bore
not a hair out of place with no-one to impress
on go my earrings as i slip into my dress
another outing planned 'oh no that's ok'
I utter the same words in the same nice kind of way
i tell them i dont mind when they joke about the wheel
when really id rather they didnt make it a big deal
watching them laugh in such a different tone
they look into each others eyes and I'm suddenly alone
my eyes are smiling sweetly while my mind begins to hum
my heart sinks lower and I'm chewing on my gum
I chew the straw in anger as I tap my feet in rage
another night is over and nothing has changed
a glance across the room says I'm not the only one
but a glance to the group says I'm the sore thumb
a turn of my head with a flick of my hair
is a lost and unnoticed attempt to tell them I don't care

You're standing infront of a crossroad
and all you see is a one way street
we offer you a lifeline
but your to proud to hold out your hand

you've painted a mask that won't come off
for their benefit you bear the cross
hidden meanings and sunken desires
they hold you down while you're reaching higher

I haven't seen you in months
we spoke a couple of days ago
are you ok, is everything alright?
give me a call, I'd like to know

I remember the glint from in your eyes
the happy smile that carried you high
I remember the light within your smile
your face now resembles a mosaic tile

they don't appreciate the things you say
your words are coated in confusion
you fail at trying to hide the pain
let me help you escape your illusion

I can feel myself about to scream
from helping you live a one way dream
tears on the inside will never show
I stay strong so you won't let go

It's time to take somebodys hand
It's time to let us guide you
together we can understand
the demons that try to fight you
it's time to walk a different road
let your eyes open wider than before
you've made yourself such a heavy load
don't be scared to ask for more

Take a second to look into our eyes
let us take your plastic disguise
I offer you a shoulder judgement free
I offer you eyes that will always see
trust my words for what they are
a touch of your own heart removes the scar

Is it wrong if I feel the urge to say
It's time to call this whole thing a day
It's not that I'm not having a good time
It's that I can't begin to live a lie

Is it bad if I said I've given it some thought
Some time to think it over, I've been here before
Is it so wrong if I tell you that I treasure what we have
But not enough to stay here walking the same path

We walked hand in hand beneathe the summer sun
We ran around like crazy kids making our own fun
You told me that I rocked your world
You told me I was an amazing girl
And I meant it when I looked in your eyes
And said you were truely an amazing guy

I hold up a shield that I refuse to let down
And I don't feel bad that its my permanant surround
In my mind I painted a picture that is set to perfection
But I don't see the brush ever heading in your direction
It's a harsh sensation to have it all so figured out
But a satisfying combination to know there is no doubt

Would you hate me if I said that I knew all this time
That I'd been contemplating misery, but a misery sublime
That I knew the words to say, but I just didn't know how
That I didn't know the time, but I had it all so figured out

We walked hand in hand beneathe the summer sun
We ran around like crazy kids making our own fun
You told me that I rocked your world
You told me I was an amazing girl
And I meant it when I looked in your eyes
And said you were truely an amazing guy

We walked hand in hand beneathe the summer rain
We talked one on one about friendships and pain
You held me close as the cars drove by
I could see you staring at me from the corner of my eye
And I meant it when I said that you made me feel insane
so please don't feel bitter as you watch me walk away

I saw your picture through glassy eyes
Thinking back on all the tears I cried
I saw your name on my mobile screen
you called just to find out how I'd been
Do you ever think back to those days in school
What if you'd have told me and not been a fool
what if you'd have had the balls to say how you felt
Could things have been different, where would we be now?

I listened to your song just the other day
The song about tears, heartache and pain
The song about a girl who left you waiting
I hope that wasn't me who left you anticipating
I listened as the guitar was slowly strummed
And I could hear your heart slowly fall to crumbs
I listened to your voice sounding so pure
Emphasising the way you search for your cure

I watched you walk away from me so many times
That it hurts just to remember that fire inside
The fire that slowly dwindled into nothing at all
As we both sat back and watched each other fall
I watched you walk towards me with a smile on your face
I watched you laugh with sadness being not even a trace
You saw me walk towards you and I saw you freak out
Tell me why did you do that? Why did you back out?
Why did you lead me to believe that you had changed?
When all of this time you were just exactly the same

Next time you see me passing you by
Stop me to make sure that I look in your eyes
Next time you see me walking the streets
Cross to my way so I can just hear you speak
Next time you think of me give me a call
So we can talk about next to nothing at all
Next time you see me just flick me a wave
Just to let me know that everything's ok

A mind captured for what feels like a moment
A heart seeking just a missing component
Eyes searching for that familiar face
Arms longing for the awaited embrace
A sigh of sadness accompanies a wave of relief
A situation which lacks knowledge and belief
The promise to myself that I'd fight back the tears
Trying harder and harder to fight through the fears
My mind wonders across the memories we made
My heart is warmed by the feelings I gained
Feeling at a loss while feeling at ease
Feeling like I've failed at trying to please
The day you told me what was gracing your heart
How it hurt everytime we had to depart
It hurts to do it but I tell myself I'm right
I think of what I said and remind myself why
I couldn't go on and it burned me inside
Please understand why I couldnt live a lie
There was a time when my head was filled with you
Filled with emotion and feelings so true
But now you're here, always in my mind
And a cure for the feelings is what Im trying to find

Blinded by a tall and intriguing wall
stopping me from seeing and feeling it all
breaking past your confusing disguise
I see it now through my own clear eyes
there was nothing at all restraining my vision
though hindsight provides a nasty incision
it creates a cut that you cannot see
one which reminds me of how it could have been
my words were small and somewhat unkind
while my actions subconcsiously exposed my mind
the hurt this has inflicted was not my aim
I foresaw an outcome with minimal pain
the things I said will burn from truth
yet set us free from the insecuirty of youth
the blanket which I constantly lay beneathe
now lies lonely in midst of this heat
to protect me from feelings that potentially burn
I created a boundary tall and stern
the flaws I see are painfuly so
and I tried all I could to let them go
our destination is not to be the same
we don't share a place in this bitter game
short but sweet is a wonderfull phrase
so dwell on it now as we both walk away